Freaking Out

There is a little girl in our ward that keeps saying to me "You need to have a baby" YES I KNOW I NEED TO HAVE A BABY!!! STOP TELLING ME!! Of course she loves babies and she just wants me to have one so that she can hold it. But still I am getting tired of it. It seems like every time I turn around people are talking about babies or their kids. And I can't join in because I don't have any. I want a baby so bad!!! So when people are all talking about their kids around me, it just makes me feel like they are rubbing it in my face. Which I know that is not what they are meaning to do, but that is how I take it. I know that I just need to be patient but I have been wanting children for a long time and now that I can, I can't, if that makes any sense. I want a little Andy running around the house playing with trucks, I want a little Lizzie with pretty pig tails playing ring around the rosey. And sometimes when I say how much I want these things, they start to tell me about all the work babies are. I wish that I could slap them in the face when they tell me those kinds of things. I know that babies are work, I am not a retard! Why can't they just let me be? Why can't they just let me have my little dreams? Why do they have to smear it in my face!? I am sick of being preached to and given advice to every time I talk about anything. Just LET ME BE!!!!!!!!!!!