Snuggled under the Big Blue Blanket

Dancing alone in the shadow of you
Wishing on a star under the soft moon
Dew sprinkled grass caresses my feet
To preserve the moment do not speak
Time trickles down in the form of rain
Washing away the shadow never seen again
Dew sprinkled grass says it was only a dream
But I know things are what they seem
Even though the shadow is gone
My wish from the star won't be long
Time trickling stops in the form of sun
Shadow comes to play and have fun
To preserve the happiness do not speak
As dew sprinkled grass caresses my feet
Under a blanket of stars wishes come true
As I dance a waltz with only you

March 23, 2007

Sarah

blogging

I think I have become addicted to this blog....... Ever since we have gotten the internet it has become part of my morning routine. Maybe I should just chill out or I won't have anything to write about.



Yesterday I broke our microwave :( It was really sad. I came home for lunch so that I could have lunch with Stephen before he went to school. We were going to have pizza rolls, so I got them all ready and put them in the microwave, I shut the door, and turned the little knob (it doesn't have buttons) and just when I got it to the time I wanted the little knob broke off!! I was so sad :( So we had to get pliers to use turn the thing that the knob was on so we could eat our pizza rolls. Well then last night we went and got a new microwave! It is nice and has buttons so that I can't break anything. It is also big enough to pop big bags of popcorn!!!! Our old microwave was not. So we bought some popcorn and popped it in our new microwave to celebrate.

Atom Smasher on HOT 96 read my e-mail I sent in on the morning show this morning!! It was awesome!! I was like yeah that was me!!!! I don't like the new co-host that he has.... she just doesn't flow well with him, if that makes any sense. I have only contacted the radio station twice and both times I got on, 1st when I called about sending flowers to myself, they played me calling in, and 2nd when I sent an e-mail about how Atom doesn't looke like Bill Cosby, and he read it!!! SWEETNESS! I don't know why I think that is so awesome....... but I do :)

Your words from Sarah for the day

Letters to the Soul

New path, New state, New place
Run away from memories that won't erase
They follow behind, can not escape

Sewn up is the mouth
Chosen not to embellish in
Slate wiped clean of doubt

Old worries, Old pain, Old ties
Blood on your hand, someone has died
It eats away knowing she wept

Hate song sooth the heart
Long road not long enough
Many times busted apart

New lessons, New fears, New past
Body enveloped beneath a rock cast
Never able to believe again

Not only a burnt bridge
Open wound, unable to heal
But also a crumbling village

Old cares, Old tears, Old news
The spirit has given up the ghost
Living no more by the cues

December 1, 2006

Sarah

Different

Isn't it interesting the foods that we crave sometimes? Like all of a sudden, out of the blue, you get a smell or a taste of some food that you really really want to eat right then. It drives me crazy! There was an episode of Bewitched where Samantha was pregnant and what ever she was craving just appeared. I sometimes wish that could happen to me.

I hate living next to a busy road. Traffic is always moving all night, and we always here the police! Then when the big trucks go by our house it shakes..... yes our house shakes. Where ever we move to next I hope that it is not by a busy street. I suppose though that a busy street is better than a nosey neighbor. I would take the street over the neighbor any day.

We need a new movie shelf to hold all of our movies!! We have run out of room for them all. Our goal is to have more movies than the Scott's. We only have maybe 1/4 of the movies that they have right now, but one day........ we just might reach our goal. We also want a library with walls full of books!! and a mahogany desk!! It has to have a mahogany desk!! If our library can't have a mahogany desk then I don't want to have a library!! ....... I sound like a brat.......... oh well

I haven't put on any make-up for the past couple of days. It has been really nice not having to take off my make-up and worrying about messing it up. It is not that I have gotten to lazy to put it on or that I am married now so I have stop taking care of myself. Its that I have gained new self confidence in myself. I don't feel ugly anymore. And that has been nice.

Attached at the Hip

Afraid of what might happen next. Shadows lurking around every corner. A shadow that stands alone, follows every movement you make. Surprise choreographed motions. Whistling can't soften your fear. Maybe because you can't whistle. Nothing is what is seems. Soft spoken words caress the face. You're trapped under the spell it creates around you. Heart becomes impaired when the shadow overpowers it. As it comes out of lurking it doesn't follow procedure. It falls in love with your fear and your face. No longer standing alone but standing with you. Then suddenly not standing at all. But flying. The shadow whistles as you sing. Moving through the clouds makes the shadow disappear and you fall to the ground, singing all the way. He lurks around every corner like before. Can't come out and overpower you closely, only keeping you in fear from a distance. You go on as you once did. Forgetting that you once flew.

January 20, 2007

Sarah

tired and bored

I am so tired this morning!!! I went to bed last night at 8:30, and I was so out of it that I didn't even hear Stephen come home, put his backpack down in our room, make himself dinner and get ready for bed. I woke up right as he was getting in bed and I was like "Woah! where did you come from?" Then I just went back to sleep. I still feel like I could use a couple more hours though.

Yesterday morning I was feeling sick, like at any minute I was going to hurl. I think it was because my nose was bleeding and I couldn't get the smell of blood out of my nose. That was just nasty.

I am done

I have decided that I don't like twilight anymore. I got up to the second book and, its just stupid. The first one is good, I like the first one. But I don't think I will ever read past number 2. It was just so stupid. I mean come on, nobody acts like that. Anyway... I need another book to read!! I have gotten so used to reading books in the morning before work instead of watching a movie like I used to do. Maybe I will just read Harry Potter over again. I know that book won't let me down.

They say Quitters Never Win but I Won when I Quit you

Cobwebs dust my face
As I peer into your soul
Smoke totally surrounds me
As I look into your soul

Breathing becomes clogged
As I step into your soul
Breathing comes to a halt
As I walk into your soul

Body lays perfectly still
As I sleep in your soul
Body becomes reborn
As I kill what's left of your soul

Walking out
Drench in blood
No more Haunting me
It's over, it's done

February 15, 2007

Sarah

Weeds grow through the cracks of the Stone

Buried under the Rose Bushes
There is a box of past wishes
That I have kept of you

Movie Stubs and an old ball cap
Small tokens and memories like that
That I have kept from you

All that's left of you is buried
In the garden of my mind
Six feet under a Rose Bush
In the garden of my mind

Regret follows me day and night
For all the wasted days and nights
That I spent with you

Fire can solve the dilemma
Flames glow against the retina
That used to see you

All that's let of you is burned
In the ashes of my mind
Where a garden used to be
Are now the ashes of my mind

May 17, 2007

Sarah

We got the internet!!!!!

I am sooo excited about having the internet at home!!! You have no idea! I it so irritating to only be able to get on it at work or at my parent's house. Now I can get on it when ever I want to because I have it at home!! And now I can watch my netflix tv shows at home and not just at lunch time at work. I can buy more music on itunes! I can google things!!! I can watch dumb videos on youtube! I am soo happy that we have the internet!

Happy Happy Joy Joy

I want a new job!

I got into a fight with my boss yesterday. It was the worst one that we have had in two years. She didn't speak to me all day, she was outside cleaning the yard all day but when she did come in she would slam the doors. At the end of the day she told me that she had been treating me the way I treat her everyday. Which is not true, I don't slam doors, and when I leave I tell her that I am going. Yeah I don't always tell her good morning, but she was just acting childish. She thinks everybody is out to get her and just because I am not all talky with her that I am being rude and mean to her. Yet she couldn't remember when I reminded her that she shoved my chair last week on purpose. She doesn't remember anything rude that she does, only the things that other people do. AND I AM NOT EVEN BEING RUDE!! I am just being myself. I am not going to be all happy if I am not feeling good. But I don't try to be nasty, and she thinks that I am.
The funny thing about yesterday was before I even went into work I had a small thought that I would have a reason to quit that day. I really wish I would have just walked out. But I need money....... that is why I am writing this blog while I am at work....... good ol' Krodel Law Office...

Today is mine and Stephen's four month anniversary! It seems like it has been longer than that. We will probably watch some Smallville to celebrate. We are so boring. But we like it that way. :)

Stephen bought me twilight a couple of days ago, so I could have something else to read when I got done with the other book series I was reading. And I like it. I only started it yesterday morning and I am on chapter eight right now. I want to finish it before the movie comes out on DVD. Then my mom wants to borrow it. I don't think my mom ever buys books for herself, she always borrows them from me. I am enjoying it. I can't wait until I read all of them so that I can participate in conversations about them.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Ok one of the reasons why I got a new phone was because I kept getting these calls from this "Restricted Number" and anytime I answered they would either hang up or stay on the phone for a couple of seconds/minutes without saying anything, but I knew there was a person because I could hear them breathing. I would try to talk to them, but they never said anything back. Sometimes I would just hold my phone up to the tv or my cd player until they hung up. Some days they would call 5 times in the course of an hour. So I got a new phone and a new phone number last spring thinking that the phone calls would stop. I was wrong. I got one this morning. I don't understand it at all.

Different Things All Put Together That One Title Wouldn't Make Sense

Why does it have to be sooo cold outside?? I am ready for spring and summer to come! I am ready for flip flops and not having to wear a jacket (even though I love them) I am ready for the sunshine and the green pretty grass! I am ready to take Amber to the river walk and take more retarded pictures! I am ready for my foot heater to be back down in the basement! I am ready to stop being cold! I am ready for February to be over with!



There are only a few movies that can make me cry, and I have found one to add to that list. Wuthering Heights. My mom didn't really like it, so of course that meant that I was never exposed to it. Well I just saw the PBS version of it last night and oh my gosh I cried! I can't decide if I like it though..... it is one of those I think has to grow on you. But if you want a good crying movie Wuthering Heights will do it.



Stephen and I are going to chaperon the Valentines Day youth dance! We are really excited for it. I know that sounds weird, our first Valentines Day together and we are going to be going to a youth dance. But we have wanted to chaperon for awhile and this was the first time that the opportunity came up. The main reason I wanted to go was to spy on Andy and Amber, I haven't been able to see Amber at a dance and the last time I saw Andy at one he was little. Cuteness!


Anyways... I am just writing this because I have nothing better to do. I can't wait until the weekend! Saturdays Stephen works until 3 so I get my cleaning done early in the morning and go over to my parents house to hang out with the family. It is nice to just be at the house with them. I am going to miss that when we move. Which won't be until next year so that is good that I get to be around my family for a little bit longer. I am going to miss watching Heather and Melanie grow up :( Oh well I will get to watch my own family grow up :)


I love watching TV shows on DVD! There are no commercials and there is no waiting for next week to see what happens. The episodes come on one right after the other. It is awesome!! Right now Stephen and I are watching Smallville, which is a really good show, and after we are done with Smallville we are going to start Heros. Then what will be next??? Any suggestions??

HEY!!

WE GOT A COMPUTER!!!!!!! I AM TYPING ON IT RIGHT NOW!!!! It is like itty bitty! So cute! So that is what we named it. It is awesome as heck! Right now we are all sitting around watching Faith Hill sing America the Beautiful. the office is coming on after the Superbowl!! I can't wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I loved the snow that came this week, I didn't have to work for a couple of days... it was great!! I hung out around the house and cleaned, watched movies, all that great stuff you do on a saturday or your day off. We are getting some more snow on monday.

Ok I am going to go now.....

Take Care

Sarah Marie Goff